8 Days of Kaylee

I meant to do this yesterday (at a week), but today will have to do. We have fallen so in love with this little angel in the past eight days. I think I could make a list of one thousand things, but I will stick to eight for now.

8 Things I Love About You!

1. Your little purrs and hums that you make especially while sleeping.
2. When you are done feeding and you pull off my breast with milk running down your little cheeks, eyes closed, and you let out a sign on contentment. 
3. The way you turn and stare at your daddy when he talks to you. You recognized his voice right away after you were born and it melts my heart to see the love you have for one another.
4. The funny faces you make when you are sleeping after being fed. I swear you smile (and frown) even if you don't do it intentionally.
5. That you still get the hiccups at least once a day just like when you were in my belly.
6. The way you make a little meh sound instead of crying when you want something or are unhappy. Although you surely will cry if we ignore your mehs for too long!
7. The way you nuzzle your head under my chin when we snuggle.
8. The smell of your skin.

Kaylee Is Here!!!!

I thought I should let you know...my princess arrived!!!

Kaylee Marie was born 2 days early on June 12, 2012 and was 6lbs 14oz and 20.5cm long! Birth was an amazing experience that my husband and I both agree was one of the coolest things we have ever been a part of. I will update in a birth story, but wanted to let you know that CF played no role in the birth and it was honestly so much better than I ever expected. Hard as hell, but so beyond rewarding. I went med free, she successfully latched within the first hour of being born, and we went home about 24 hours after birth. We are home, happy, and healthy! I will give you all the details soon! I am trying to write her birth story so I won't forget a single thing!! Take care!

Confessions Of A Pregnant Cyster Part 4

This will most likely be my last installment of Confessions before baby is here. You can catch my other 3 installments here, here, and here.

21. Everyone loves to tell you when you are newly pregnant to just wait till such and such happens and how horrible it is going to be. For example, when I first started feeling baby move everyone would say, "You just wait until she gets stronger and kicks all night. You won't get any sleep." Or another one I remember getting was, "You just wait till she finds your rib cage! You will not like feeling baby after that!" The list goes on and on.

This is complete and utter bullshit. I am 3 days shy of 40 weeks and I in no way have felt any of those "warnings" to have been bothersome. Sure she found my ribs, sure I have pelvic pressure, sure I get acid reflux like nobody's business, BUT would I ever need to warn another mother to be about these "horrors"? No, honestly I really can't complain about anything. It is all part of the experience and I wouldn't trade away peeing 100x a night for anything because it is a step needed in order for my dreams of becoming a mom to come true. This leads me to believe all these people are whiners and exaggerators and should try having CF and then see if a little foot to the rib is such a big deal. Sheesh, that was quite a vent!

22. I am getting to the point that I really want baby to be here. I know her due date isn't until Thursday and I have no problem letting her stay until she is ready, but the closer I get to 40 weeks the more I worry about having to be induced. I really want to avoid induction if at all possible and I know if she stays too long I will require an induction. I really would like her and my body to work together and have her arrive when nature intended rather than a bunch of medical doctors force her to come. In the end all I really want is a healthy baby, but I would love to have a healthy baby that comes on her own.

23. I still forget I am pregnant. Yes, it is weird, but true! I went out with a friend who is about 24 weeks pregnant and she was trying on maternity clothes. She tried one outfit on that was super cute. I mentioned it looked like it would be one of those maternity shirts that could be warn even when you are not pregnant. I then almost offered to try it on to see if it looks cute on a non pregnant body only to realize that I was significantly more pregnant than she was. Oops! I swear Peanut and I have live in such harmony that I forget that she is there sometimes. It is weird being 9 months pregnant and needing reminders that you are indeed pregnant!

Those are the last of my confessions and hopefully soon (very very soon) I will no longer be pregnant and will have to switch to confessions of a mothering cyster.

39 Weeks- Watermelon

Baby is the size of a watermelon now...makes me sound real attractive.

How Far Along: 39 weeks 1 day! 
How Big Is Baby: Watermelon...that sounds so good right now!
Total Weight Gain: 21lbs as of Wednesday. Not too shabby!

Sleep: I talked to my OB about my heartburn and he told me to take liquid antacid (I always thought it was antiacids with the prefix anti (counteracting, against, or opposite, but apparently its antacid...). So now I sleep sooooo much better. 
Movement: Still squirming and wiggling. The other day I looked at my stomach cause it felt funny and my right side was twice as big as my left! OMG it was crazy. My husband made me take a picture cause it looked so bizarre. 

What I Miss: My energy...the last week is exhausting!
What I'm Looking Forward To: Holding, kissing, and snuggling my little baby for the first time.
Milestones: She is pretty much cooked so not a whole lot of new exciting news.
Symptoms: I am FINALLY getting some tightening and braxton hicks. Yay!

Other: People keep asking if I am nervous for labor. I know it is supposed to be the hardest most painful thing you can experience and yet somehow I am really not even an ounce nervous yet. Maybe I am in denial. I figure there is no getting out of it so I shouldn't waste my time worrying about it. Besides every human got here the same way so although it may be the suckiest 12, 16, 24, 36 hours of my life it must be doable and hey at the end you get a pretty cool prize!

What Is That?!

I have a random pregnancy detail that I wanted to write down because I know I will never remember it and it is too weird not to remember. Lately, I have been having a weird sensation that took me forever to figure out the cause and it really is bizarre. Under my left baby feeder by my ribs I get this very unusual rattling. It sounds like there is something trying to escape and it gets worse when I walk. I actually was terrified it was mucus trapped in my lungs rattling around, but it sounded different than trapped mucus and it seemed to be a LOT of rattling for it to be in my lungs. I started to notice it happened more often when I drank a lot of fluids. Still a mystery, but figured it wasn't mucus. 

Yesterday I finally figured out what it was. It is trapped air and I realized it would rattle around until I would (politely and silently with my mouth shut) burp it out. Seriously. My organs are so shifted around I am not even sure what part of my digestive track is hanging out on my left side by my chest, but it traps air sometimes. I totally understand how a baby feels now when they want to burp (but unlike me can't) and then they cry. If the only way to get rid of it was to cry until someone wacked my back i probably would cry too.

The rest of the post is tmi so I am warning you now. 

I went to my second home the doctor and he asked me if i wanted a cervical check which I have always turned down in the past. You can be dilated, but not go into labor for weeks or you can be totally closed and give birth the next day. I didn't want false hope or to be frustrated when there is nothing you can do about how dilated you are. Plus I have felt almost nothing as far contractions or well anything! I say almost because sometimes I feel lots of pressure and other times feel crampy, but then I never know if I have to go to the bathroom or if it is cramps from my cervix. See I warned you!  

Today was a little different. When he offered I decided curiosity was getting the best of me and since it was my last appointment until I was full term (yikes) I decided to see what was going on. Turns out I am 1-2cm dilated and about 70% effaced. FYI- You need to be 100% effaced to push the baby out so 70% isn't too shabby. Although I know this doesn't indicate when baby will make her arrival it was nice to know my body is somewhat contemplating evicting her AND I have 1-2 fewer cms to deal with during labor. Only having 8-9 cms sure sounds better than 10! Now lets get this show on the road!!!

2 Week Wait Again!!!

Anyone who has ever tried to have a baby or heck even those who were trying not to have a baby knows all about the two week wait. Those pesky 2 weeks after the deed is done all the way up until you can test to see if your pregnant. Everyone tells you to stay busy, don't think about, you will make yourself crazy so ignore the fact you are waiting for the biggest life change ever! And of course, you understand they are being logical and that their advice is for the best, but nobody ever takes that advice! For me, every little thing that seemed even remotely different was a what if. I feel a little more tired today...maybe I am pregnant. I think my chest is more sore today I may be pregnant! I am feeling a little queasy I think I may be pregnant!! I may or may not be more or less hungry than usual, I must be pregnant!!!!

Yes, well nobody ever told me that those crazy thoughts come back again even after you get pregnant. I am currently in my second 2 (or 3) week wait for labor to begin. At least with a regular 2ww you have an end in sight. You know there is a test day and then a few days later you can test again if you think the test lied, but within a few days after that 2ww you know for sure whether or not you are pregnant. With labor, you could have your 2ww end the day it starts (38 weeks) or it could end 2 weeks after it was supposed to end (42 weeks). I know that eventually the doctors evict the little one so at least the wait isn't forever, but it sure feels like it!

For now, even though I told myself not to and even though I know it is crazy making everyday I feel extra pressure or a little more back pain or anything that may resemble early labor symptoms I think what if...

BTW- I totally blame my husband for this! I was set on expecting baby to be late so I wouldn't go crazy if I had to wait till 41 weeks to meet her. He informed me yesterday to my dismay that if baby comes early or on time he can take a week off work, but if baby comes 1 week late he can take maybe 4 days tops. I tried to pretend it was all cool because I know he does NOT want to leave baby that soon after delivery and I didn't want to make him feel bad, but sheesh that sure threw me in evict baby soon mode! I have to go now because I felt a weird twinge and think I may be in labor...(j/k).

Creepy Crawlers and 38 weeks

I am officially 38 weeks and 1 day. I had a doctor appointment today and when they handed me the info packet for 38 weeks pregnant I almost gave it back to them. I can't possibly be 38 weeks already! That went way too fast!!!

What is new with the pregnancy?
I am experiencing the worst heartburn ever! It only happens at night and it happens all night long. I have tried everything natural I have ever heard of: papaya, gum, milk, propping up with pillows, not eating too close to bedtime, the list goes on and on. Most of these remedies worked for most of the pregnancy, but now no matter what I do my heartburn rages on all night long leaving me with little sleep. I finally talked to my doc who told me to take a liquid anti acid over the counter. I will be stopping by the grocery store today to get some! I need sleep and so does my poor husband that gets woken up pretty much every night!!!

Speaking of sleep the most disgusting thing that could possibly happen to a sleeping person happened to me last night! I was sleeping soundly when I woke up to the urge to pee (big surprise), but the problem was I just wasn't ready to get out of bed yet. I just really didn't feel like peeing. It loses its luster by the 6th time in a night. So of course, I decided I was itchy (I seem to get phantom itching this pregnancy) so I spent the time I should have been peeing itching each and every individual finger- yes, fingers can get itchy, I guess. While I was contemplating itching each finger again or getting up to pee I felt a little something on my chest. Naturally, I reached down to move the hair tickling my chest, only it wasn't a hair. It was a big fat hairy spider! Although, it was dark and I don't really know if it was hairy or even a spider, but it was big and it was skittering across my body. I flung it across the room and let out a shriek which woke my poor husband. He turned on the light and sweetly looked for the spider to kill it for me at 3:00 in the morning. We never found that damn spider and with much hesitation (and after peeing) I went back to sleep. As if between peeing and heartburn I didn't need one more thing to keep me awake at night!